Daily Prompt: Childhood Revisited

submitted by michelle w.

Sure, you turned out pretty good, but is there anything you wish had been different about your childhood? If you have kids, is there anything you wish were different for them?

This was Saturday’s post but unfortunately I didn’t get to it yesterday, there is SO much from my childhood I had to think about for this post.

In a very small nutshell: I wish my father hadn’t been abusive. I wish I hadn’t been so afraid of everything. I wish I had had some confidence. I really wish my father wouldn’t have separated me and two of my siblings from my other four siblings when I was eleven. In fact, I think that is the biggest thing, I wish I was in the same country as my older brothers and sister, had my aunts and uncles, cousins, nieces and nephews, the whole extended family to help me raise my family. I now have only one older sister and her two children in this country and unfortunately it takes about 24 hours to drive to her. My childrens family on their fathers side is also twenty hours away.

I wish I had the help of a village to raise my children. I wish I had been the firm parent my youngest child needs. I’m working on that, but it’s hard. I’m a loving, kind, relaxed, ocasionally mentally ill, lead by example parent which worked fine for my oldest. My youngest needs that village, she needs structure and strict routine, I wish I hadn’t let her down with that for the last fourteen years.

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Hi, my name is Rose, I'm no longer in the flush of youth, I have a common-law husband and two teenaged daughters, multiple pets, and more debt than I'm comfortable with! Anything sounding familiar? Well, its all too familiar to me and I plan on changing a few things around here. I'll keep the husband, kids and pets, but some things just need to change! I am embarking on a journey of discovery. Warning, this blog includes discovery of self, writing, learning and growing. There may be posts that you won't be comfortable reading, but I have supressed some things for so long, things I don't want to keep anymore, so will leave them here on these pages. I hope you will follow while I live, learn, heal, try, review and share, and I hope you can grow along with me in my pursuit of betterment!
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