I am at a loss right now. I don’t have any more rants to write, I got out what needed to be said for now, I’m sure more will come up later, that’s the thing with dealing with past trauma, you think you are over it and then suddenly it pops up like a whack-a-mole. Well, I’ve hammered it down for now and don’t feel the need to talk about it anymore. (At least for now!) Plus, I have apparently discovered a rat in the grain and need to figure out who it is, either that or “unknown” is just lying and trying to upset me.
I also have a confession to make. I didn’t plant my seeds this year. I got the room all ready, got the pots and potting soil, got all the seeds and then the weather sucked so badly I couldn’t bring myself to plant the seeds. So, I guess I will just prepare the larger garden this year without planting it all, and buy a few vegetable plants that I can’t live without. It’s raining out today and the snow is almost all gone from my yard, now I’m really kicking myself for not starting those seeds.
I discovered a few things recently: that even the written word has the power to make me sick, there is no mistaking the gut feeling I get when I feel somehow threatened, most people in my blogosphere are kind, supportive people, and the need to moderate comments before they are posted is now clear.
Thanks for reading.